30^th August, 2010. Ma expired. Since my childhood and till date the majority of my deeds have been immensely influenced by her. Right from brushing my teeth twice a day to putting Vaseline at night before sleeping, all was taught by her.

I had never imagined, I would feel this hopeless. I so wanted to be with her, meet her for one last time and hug her gently. Her stories which she cut from newspapers and waited eagerly for us to listen to them, the way she tried her best to put in full expressions in the story. I will miss the way she used to explain Ambesh not to be naughty and then the way she used to get scared if he jumped around. Nana’s house would never be the same without her. In fact I don’t think I would ever enjoy myself in that place.

Each time we visited Ma-Nana, Ma would always be like eat this, you have become so weak, “Hum banu ji se bata denge”… How I wish I could gift her perfumes and creams, she was so fond of them. The amount we used to scold her for taking so long to take a bath and eating sweets on the sly.

The last time I met her she gave me money saying that she would not live till my next visit to Lucknow. Somya lied to her that she would come in August and she said “ I know you all lie, aur fir nahi aate ho”….

Life had become so fast paced that I did not even bother to take out time to call her up or even go to meet her when I was in Lucknow. She is no more…. But her memories are one of my most priced possessions…

I want god to give me ma in each life. May her soul rest in peace. I want to tell you that I love you a lot. And I miss you all the time….