THE GIRL IN ME...

The girl in me…. who is unlike any other girl and deserves to be loved and cared for.

For every girl who wants to be loved without an ounce of selfish feeling.

The girl who struggles to keep up with your ever changing moods but you fail to do so when she behaves in the same way.

For the girl who has left behind her everything, her parents, sister, her brother, that room she cherished, that house she grew up in. Just to adopt your house, your ways, your family and all what you want her to be.

One who has never worked that hard in the kitchen or has never mopped the floor just like you or your sister hasn’t as she too was relishing her childhood days and was busy with her studies to fulfill her parent’s dreams just the way you have been trying to do.

The girl who has been loved and pampered by her parents just the way you have been and yet cannot dare to demand equal treatment from your parents.

The one who was not born a perfect masterpiece and has been learning as days pass, just like you.

The girl who is equally imperfect as you and can commit the same mistakes you do and yet is shouted at for the same.

One who dislikes certain aspects of your behavior but is willing to adjust just because you would not change yourself.

The girl who is shouted at each time she buys you a gift of her choice and yet is expected to smile and agree with the things you buy her even if she doesn’t like it.

One who knows how to party, drink, and enjoy just the way you do, but won’t because you don’t want her to do it.

The girl who has male friends who have helped her since childhood and also been with her in her worst of times, yet she would not talk to them just because you don’t want her to.

Someone who likes to dress up like other girls and make friends but won’t simply because of your insecurities.

Someone who by mistake spills the food on her clothes or dirties the bed sheet she eats food on but is yelled at even if you do the same and laugh it off.

The girl who has put aside all her respect to be with you and at the end of the day is blamed to have ruined your life!

LOOKING BACK ON THE TIMES WHEN....

LOOKING BACK ON THOSE TIMES WHEN…

I feared Mom more than a ghost,

When my sis would carry my luggage all the way to the dormitory just for “2” Rupees,

When I would turn into a ghost every night to scare Somya and Ambesh by putting toothpaste on my face,

When I used to spend all my saved pocket money on my sis and bro jus to make them happy,

When Dadi asked for a glass of water and I missed my favourite song on TV and later on cried for hours,

When Somya and I used to sit in the back room of our kitchen hogging all the snacks which had to be served to the guests,

When our biggest fights were those for Maggi and Coldrink share,

When Ambesh used to cry when we used to go back to hostel after our holidays,

When the bravest thing on earth was opening Nanas fist after eating all sorts of healthy stuff,

When the most famous competition won was ‘Who finishes their milk first!’

When Ma (grandmom) would tell us stories and we used to be all scared and shocked,

When Sunita Di used to feed 10 of us from the same plate and we used to wait for our turn eagerly,

When we had those dreaded KBC sessions in Papa’s room,

When Mamma used to come from “Nowhere” and catch us talking on phone or sitting online,

When my biggest crush was ‘Salman Khan’ and best movie ‘KKHH’,

When we used to get just 3 rupees as pocket money on weekends and enjoy,

When I used to steal hajmola from amma’s bag!,

When Ambesh would go running to do my work if I called him ‘Papa’,

When Somya and I would lie down on the back seat of the car and there would still be space to accommodate someone,

When Papa would say “Sunn” and Ambesh said “Suna”,

When Mamma would threaten us to “tell to father!!”,

When Tauji made us write tables and each of use to struggle hard to count and finish off asap,

When Esha di meesha di eskandh ambesh somya n I use to go for dance classes and laugh our heads off making fun of the dance teacher and then return back all stuffed in one car!,

When Mansi di and Esha di became the King and Queen and the rest of us soldiers who were to guide their Palace(room) in the scorching sun and fight battles!!!.... hahaha,

When while playing our most favorite game Titanic-Titanic, our ship drowned and we use to splash water in the whole room!!! And later on be beaten up,

When Meesha Di and I sat behind the curtain without fan and stitched clothes for our dolls!

I wish I could relive those halcyon days of my childhood….